No need to resort to water torture. I admit it. This past weekend I co-hosted a birthday party and, well, over the course of the evening I just didn’t stop eating so much.

Don’t get me wrong. I had every intention of partaking in a nibble here, a taste there and enjoying the company more than the edibles. I was, after all, in charge of the menu and had planned a bevy of delicious mini bites to accompany the usual chips, dips and veggie tray.

Oh, and for the record, I never ventured near the veggie tray. But the fried food? The dips? The sauces? The chips? Color me over-the-top.

Granted, during the first part of the evening I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off – trying desperately to make sure everyone had a cocktail or a beverage of some sort, that hot food was coming out of the oven on time and that the jazz-infused music mix I created was playing at an appropriate volume.

But when all is said and done, these cannot be used as excuses for going overboard, eating-wise. And go overboard I did – starting with a mouthful of California roll and ending with a couple of large chocolate chip cookies (even though I was very full by that point). I won’t go into detail about what was eaten in between, but suffice it to say, I overindulged. And then some. It was mindless eating at its best (or, perhaps, worst).

So what happens now? Do I get my 60-inch belt out of the keepsake box and prepare to wear it again? Do I turn in my blogging license? Do I request that my book stop being published? Or perhaps I should go on a guilt trip and make myself so mentally miserable that I start to feel the “need” for some indulgent food to tame my nerves.

Whoop! There it is – a hint of the former cycle that I repeated daily during the time period that I weighed in excess of 450 pounds and all the years I was overweight.

Fact is, feeling guilty and beating ourselves up (mentally) after a binge can be as much a part of our bingeing habits as the actual eating itself. The mood is followed by food. The food is followed by mental punishment. And so on and so on…

Okay… So I overate… It was a party, damnit. A party I co-hosted. Something I don’t do too often. It was also Saturday night. I was hungry. I ate. Then I overate. And as a result I ended up going to bed with that “Oh, so full” feeling.

But the difference with this weekend’s overindulgence compared to past ones in my life is that I did not wake up full of remorse or angst. Oh, and for the record, even though I got to bed around 1am, I was still up at 4:30am and at my gym by 5am. Was it pleasant when the alarm rang? No, it was not. But I was determined to not break my exercise schedule and knew that I would feel better afterwards (especially after overdoing it, food-wise, the night before). And post workout? Feel better I did. Or, well, do.

So what’s in all this for you? A reminder that we’re all dieters at some level – and that we all have “on” and “off” days (sometimes even after most of our excess weight is lost and even after we’re not officially on a diet anymore).

You might be surprised to know that even so-called “Thin People” (you know the odd group of folks who never really have to diet?) also have moments when they exceed their body’s “full limit” and feel a bit stuffed. Sure, they might complain about it for a minute. But then they move on. So that’s exactly what I did after this weekend’s party binge. I overindulged (mini binged) like a thin person. Then I recovered. Immediately. And you can do the same the next time you fall off the wagon.

When push comes to shove (or when mouth comes to fried food), it’s not one overindulgence that makes us fat (or keeps us fat). Its repeated overindulgences – on a daily basis or even at every meal. A “once in a while” goof makes us human. There are going to be times that despite best intentions, we don’t just stop eating so much. And that’s when, instead of falling into a vicious and destructive bingeing cycle, we laugh it off (while hopefully exercising it off) and hit the ‘reset’ key.

So when was the last time you overindulged? And how did you handle it? I really want to know. Because together we will grow. (And yes, I use the word ‘grow’ figuratively and not literally!)

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4 Responses to “Eating for two – and then some”

  1. Teresa Fischer says:

    Thanks for a wonderful post. I believe what separates those who “win” at the losing game – meaning those who take the weight off and keep it off – is a combo of insight and forgiveness. I never mastered either of those but am learning to do so now. Let’s face it: in a party situation where there are wonderful things to be nibbled, we will overindulge. We need the insight to know and accept that when that happens, we must return to our healthy eating and exercise routine just as you did today. The second part – forgiveness has been my downfall for decades. The shame of being overweight is so heavy – yes, I said heavy! It truly held me back from forgiving myself and loving myself. The former me would overindulge and then give up and just get into a cyle of sugar and junk food. Now, I know that I will occaisionally overeat or eat some junk food and that is okay. That’s living. Since I have replaced by regular, mindless, grazing with thoughtful eating, I can indulge once in a while – like last night. After the show the restaurant owners fixed us dinner. I didn’t really need to eat a full meal at 9:30PM and I certainly didn’t need to eat the wonderful home-made potato chips but I enjoyed every moment of it. I ate a light dinner with a medium portion of the aforementioned potato chips and it was delicious. I put the points in my WW tracker and today I am back on program. No guilt. When you forgive yourself and you understand why you are indulging, the guilt goes away and you return to your regular healthy eating patter. It feels so good to feel good about eating. I can really enjoy food now with no guilt. Is it weird that you and I experiencing similar things on opposite coasts? What is that about? It must be some La Mancha connection in the universe.

  2. Gregg says:

    Hee-Hee! I love the La Mancha connection, Teresa. And I also love everything you wrote. Such great affirmations and helpful insights. They inspire me and, I’m sure, others. I appreciate your post more than you’ll ever know. And for the record, I did salivate a little when reading about the ‘wonderful home-made potato chips.’ I’m just sayin’… 😉

  3. cheryl says:

    This is such an important topic. Letting the guilt go for a night of good food and friends is something to be savored and enjoyed. I have not done that and didn’t enjoy myself, and made people who were enjoying the food feel guilty as I sat sipping on water, sometimes to go home and then pig out because I was so hungry looking at good food I didn’t want to eat – what’s the point!

    Life is a balance and what you wrote is definetly part of that dance.

  4. Gregg says:

    Oh, Cheryl… I have been in that place, too — trying desperately not to eat anything in a social situation and then realizing I made other people uncomfortable by doing so. You’re right. It is a dance — a delicate dance. And often, I’ve had two left feet. LOL!

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